My day did not go as plan. After a tough night, V woke up at 03:00 and did not go back to sleep. Not only was he wide awake – he wanted me to be aswell. He kicked me in the face, hit me, scratched me…he was a real angel. At 07:00 I checked his bum and think I found the reason – bad bad bad nappy rash (sorry for the mommy talk)
So The doctor was the first stop of the day and after that it has been non stop. V happily slept from 09:00-12:00 but I had meetings so I couldnt…sucker.
But the day went well in general and I even got spoiled by a very dear friend, who always knows what I need (even when I dont). Country Road – luxury!!!
Then I got spoiled by another friend, cooking dinner for me and V. I seriously wonder what I would do without these girls?!
Going to bed with s smile on my face, a boy what a gift!
Just left V at playschool, took Svea for a vaccination and now Im enjoying a coffee and juice at Nice. My company ? – House and leisure – maybe the best mag on the market (my opinion).
Very trendy people would say it is too commercial and “easy”. But I just love when u feel that it is not too “far away”, it actually works for your budget. You find a little bit of everything and inspiration is pumping in your veins!
I wonder how it would be working at a mag? Maybe I should try it out
But first – a baby! Next Scan is in 20 min. Crossing fingers that everything is ok…
Sometimes you think – two children, was that a smart decision? As I told you before, V has now entered the tantrum phase. Frustrating, for both him and me.
But when everything is just hard and you feel drained with no energy left. He says “elefant” and looks at you like he just invented the wheel. Well, the energy just pours back.
His first real words are; elefant and tiger…and fläkt which means fan in english. Wow – makes mom proud!
I lay awake yesterday, thinking about good topics for the blog. Many of them where about me and my feelings…surprised?
I’m asking a lot of questions at the moment, good questions. Like; When it is ok to work and when is it not ok? Why the view of not working/working is so different in different countries? When do I feel happy and satisfied with myself? Have I lost the edge, have I become a lazy housewife, will I ever want to work (the way I did before) again? If I do, how important will my salary be? How important will my “power” be? How important will the actual work be?
I will try to organise and analyse these questions, and I’ll get back to you. One thing is for sure – I have changed… I’am quite sure to the better. I still have big issues about not working but my thoughts are much clearer (to me) and I think I’m starting to feel satisfied with myself…after 2,5 years…haha.
Pic from the morning walk…
A quite cold weekend with beautiful autumn colours. We followed the ESC live yesterday and I got bit nostalgic…missing Sweden. It doesnt help that V is only watching old Astrid Lindgren movies on the IPad. The new favourite is Karlsson on the roof.
Eating by himself…well the food does not always end up in his mouth. But it is so much fun.
Have been busy these last days…lot of work – but fun. I’m getting more energy, dont know if it’s the gym but what ever works makes me happy. A little bit nauseous lately but thats probably normal.
Third scan coming up on tuesday…scary/fun. I love to hear the hart beat – it is magical. Getting very curious, who is this little person, will he/she be like V or completely different? I was driving the other day and I thought – V has always been calm in the car…maybe the next one will be an inferno?
We will just have to wait and see…
Had a really nice afternoon tea with five girls today. It was a discussion /coaching meeting. The topic was emotions & moods – how we deal with them and how it affects our decisions. No right or wrong, just five girls sharing their experience and their thoughts. It was awesome! Just skip the normal chat about children, school, dogs, help, work and just focus on something completely different. It was refreshing and I felt I got closer to three strangers than to friends I see every day…weird feeling. I left feeling very calm…but also with a tiny question in my head – Did I speak too much? Haha – I always do!
To make a long story short – these two hours gave me more energy than two weeks at the gym. Thx Inge & Julia!!
…and I also got tho put some make up on. Not every day I take time to do my eyes…like it!
Today I felt – Im pretty damn good. Thats quite nice. Lately my head has been full of; I dont spend enough time with V, not enough time with the dogs, not enough time on my blog, not enough time on my websites, not enough time at home, not enough time at the gym. But today – I felt good. Well the dogs did not get their morning walk but other than that. V, my blog, my sites, my husband, my gym (tennis), my home…got enough time. Going to bed with a smile on my face!
Such a Star!!!
My bump at the gym
Today is 19 weeks – scary time goes so quickly! 21 degrees and a blue sky – love this country.